It's 1.51am, I woke up an hour ago, my mind can't stop thinking about work, there's a lot to be done, report report report and more report....I turn my computer on but still can't find the rythm to start typing my report. I opened my FB account but found nothing interesting so I closed it and suddenly I got the urge to start blogging.

Nothing to blog actually, it's raining, it's cold and very quite except for the rain drops on the roof. I kept on looking at the time in my computer and it's 2.05am. I guess I'm just procastinating on my work or maybe not. I missed a quiet moment like this, ever since I have my little angel I hardly can find some quite time for myself. If I'm not buzy taking care of my baby I'll be buzy with work and no more hanging out with friends. I'm no longer in the picture when friends go out having a time out but I feel alright with that because being close to my baby was all that matter.

Missing My Little Boy

Tonight is the toughest night for me, ever since I hold him in my arms for the first time up until now, I have never been away from my baby boy. Feels like I just wanna start the engine and race home to see him.

I called up home to ask how he was doing and I can hear him in the background crying, but then mum told me not to worry too much and focus on my work while I'm here, after all it's only for 4 nights.


Mummy will be home Friday night so now daddy will take care of you. Sleep tight my little angel.

My First Time Blogging

I have been thinking for so long to start writing my own blog but I didn't know how to start. I have created my account since March 2009 but until today, it is left blank for I don't know what to blog about.

Today is a 'Yeah!' for me that after one and a half year later I finally found the guts to start my blog (Ngeh.. :-D ) Some people might be wondering why wait for that long? it's just a matter of typing words. Well frankly speaking, I don't have the confidence for I'm scared that people might not like what I write or they will laugh at some spelling errors I will make. But then again, who doesn't ya? even a professional blogger ( if such a person does exist) could make mistake.

Therefore, this is what I learned, If I wait for the right time to come to start writing in my blog i.e waiting for my writing skill to sharpened, waiting until I have a good story (that pleases everybody) to write, wait until I can spell all the words in the dictionary right and so on, then the perfect time will never come. So, I decided that, If I want to make things happen, I should just start do the things that will get it going even if it means I will make mistake the first time doing it rather that just sit on it, wait for the perfect timing and never learn from your mistake.

Before I end this session I would like to share one story I read in a book by Dr. Ron Jenson 'Make a Life, Not Just a Living'. The story goes like this....

A college freshman at his first football practice breaks away for an eighty-yard touchdown run. His teammates look at him in amazement and disbelief. His coach says, "You're going to have quite a future around here." Later, his blonde girlfriend kisses him excitedly. Life is completely satisfying, and the future looks bright!.

But nothing in this young man's life ever lives up to that day. He doesn't become a big-time football player. His business career is equally disappointing. His marriage sours and the pain of all these failures is even greater because he remembers thinking, on a perfect day many years before, that life would always be pleasant.
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